I fell in love with this handsome young man many years ago.
The handsome young man with bright blue eyes and a heart of Gold.
The handsome young man who is still in love with me and I still in love with him.
Through thick and thin we are sticking together.
He supports me in all the crazy things I do and I put up with him because he sees me through.
My Rockin’ Roy. My rock of life. In my heart and in my soul.
HOW DO I TELL THIS STORY???
This story of love.
This story about Roy and the journey he is on.
The journey we are both on.
Everywhere life is full of beauty and perfection.
We go along happy as can be, thinking we have life all figured out and then POW!!
That happy life you thought you had all figured out suddenly gets sad.
But you can’t have happiness without sadness.
Just like you can’t have life without death.Roy has been on a journey since the day he was born.
He has risen to every challenge put in front of him and found happiness in doing it.
He has figured out many things about this life, his life.
Like how to catch what you want.
And be proud of it.
Roy has perfected the art of being alone.
Of sitting quietly and taking in beauty.
Accepting company even when he might want to be alone.
The beauty of Roy is he often finds joy in what ever situation he may be in.
In sickness and in health.
He easily sets aside the pain and struggles of life.
In sickness and in health.
He works on finding solutions. Patiently waiting for love.
And finding it. In sickness and in health.
I have not always been but I am now a like a guest in Roy’s life.
He calls the shots and I try to stay in the background.
Like the sunrise, mountains and the river.
Caregiving can be exhausting.
You have to remain tender and soft.
While trying not to lose your life and soul and balance.
You get lonely and sometimes a little resentful.
Which does not help when meeting life’s unwelcome challenges.
So I preserve my energy and keep calm.
I remember to see beauty.
I remember to be grateful.
Sometimes we get what we want.
Sometimes we lose what is precious to us.
Joy and sorrow are part of this deal we call life.
So get all the joy you can while you still can.
Life is full of hidden treasures.
Make a point of finding them.
My treasure is my Roy, my rock, my love.
A more informative note.
Because I know many want to know.
Roy has entered a new chapter in his fight against brain cancer.
The fight is over. We are at a new juncture.
The harsh treatments and chemotherapy have ended. Because we said so.
Although we can’t ignore the predictions and the prognosis any longer, we are living life to the fullest.
Even if that means lying in bed watching old movies.
I am committed and honored to take care of Roy in this final phase of his life.
I have learned to get rid of anger, fear and frustration. Most of the time!
I can pick up the pieces of my life some other day.
Roy is weak but in no pain. What a blessing 🙂
He still loves food. We eat, we eat!
And yes……He knows he is in the final phase of his life.
He admits to occasional fear but is facing the reality of diminishing immortality ever so valiantly.
We are ever grateful for family and friends and healers who are guiding us through this difficult time.